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Hey, Too Young for the Shit listeners, it’s Shauna and we’re on our season two finale.

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Thank you so much for all of your support.

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Your feedback is important and will allow us to improve future podcast episodes for

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our listeners.

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The survey link is in our show notes.

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Thank you and enjoy the final episode of season two.

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Hi everyone.

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Welcome to season two.

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This is Shauna and this is Rosalina and we’re your hosts for Too Young for the Shit podcast.

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This podcast is not just about boobs, but our journey with cancer.

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We are young millennials open about giving you our raw and unfiltered look into our lives.

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We are in no way medical professionals, nor are we offering medical advice.

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Any medical references are cited directly from public websites or form our personal

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diagnosis.

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Some topics and stories may be triggering to those who are fighting, have fought or

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have loved someone with cancer.

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Hey everyone, it’s Rosalina.

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And this is Shauna.

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Welcome back to the Too Young for the Shit podcast.

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This is our season finale, the last episode that we’ll be recording for season two.

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Super exciting.

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I feel like we’ve been working on season two for the past six months.

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Yes, it has been that long.

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It’s been six months.

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We did give ourselves some time.

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We had finished treatment and just kind of I think needed a breather and then wanted

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to plan.

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We both had things going on and I’m kind of happy it ended up this way because then we

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were able to cover our surgeries and now our recovery.

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So it did end up working out, but it was a long six months.

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Yeah.

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Hopefully you’re not sick of me, Shauna.

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I hope you’re not sick of me.

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Yes.

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Yeah.

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I mean, it’s also crazy to think like, you know, it was like this time last year that

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we started recording like season one.

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Yes.

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It’s been like a year.

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Happy anniversary.

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Yes.

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Happy anniversary to you too.

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To the birth of this podcast, actually.

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Shauna, let’s get into the day before or the day of your surgery.

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Like how were you feeling?

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I was so excited.

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I wasn’t nervous.

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I was like, I don’t think I’ve ever been like so excited for surgery ever.

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I also like, to be honest, I love anesthesia.

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I love it so much.

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I had an endoscopy today and had got to get put under and I was like pumped for it.

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I just, I don’t know what is wrong with me.

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It’s just like, it’s like the best sleep ever and I don’t sleep well.

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So it’s like, I look forward to it.

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I was just going to say that you probably feel like you are sleeping well or like a

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little bit more when you’re under than on a regular basis.

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Absolutely.

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So yeah, I mean, it was, I felt like prepared.

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I felt just kind of like ready to get it over with.

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Like I just wanted the expanders out.

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I think I just wanted the box, the last surgery box checked off too.

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Like I, you know, I had posted on Instagram, like this is the last box I needed checked

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off of my reconstruction journey.

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And not to say like, you know, there’s going to be a revision surgery in my future, but

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just like having my implants in for me was just like the end, the end of the road.

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It’s something I look forward to for over a year.

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So I went in like super prepared, ready to go.

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I felt confident with my plastic surgeon.

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You know, everyone in the support groups also say like, it just like instantly feels better

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when you’re done, like, you know, when you get your expanders out and you have your implants

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in.

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I was like looking forward to the end of that.

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I mean, my expander was so overly filled and so just like tight and you know, on my radiated

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side and just like, I was ready to get that thing out.

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Like, and it’s funny because you do get so used to it.

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I didn’t realize how like uncomfortable that was.

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I think I was just so used to it that it was just normal.

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But like when it came out, I was like, oh my God, it was like instant relief.

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I also got used to my expander as well.

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I mean, you had that thing on for like a year ago.

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Yeah, mine was a year and two months.

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Like I went in, in a really like good mood.

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I was like for surgery of the day.

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So I think like, I don’t know how people do like surgery and then have it in the afternoon

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and have to think about it from the moment you wake up.

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I know.

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And then they’re not ridiculous.

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And then they’re not eating because that’s really hard.

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Like I had this endoscopy today as at 2 30.

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I didn’t get to eat something until 4 p.m. today.

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And I was, I was like, I woke up, I was like Oreos and apple juice.

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Like that was the first thing.

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Yeah, I went in.

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My first thing I think we had to be there at like six.

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I think I was like in surgery by 730.

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Again, had to walk myself into my own operating room because NYU just like let’s fucking do

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it like will make you hard.

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Like I find that to be weird.

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Put yourself on your own table.

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You know, it’s like, I don’t know.

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It’s like, I guess I don’t own my own weird way of like being in control, too.

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I’m fine with it.

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So I like the table.

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And then of course, I am like, I tell your story.

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I’m like getting hooked up.

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I’m like into the end of physiology.

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And I’m like, so I have a friend in L.A. who got who got had her surgery at UCLA and they

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gave her essential oils before her surgery.

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And I’m like telling them the story.

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And I’m like, and here I am having to walk myself on like into my own operating room,

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putting myself on the table.

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I here’s my essential oils.

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And again, like my operating room was like laughing.

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And like they also the same thing.

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They’re like, yeah, that’s like such a California thing.

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Like they were even like, yeah, no, we don’t do that here in New York.

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So it was just like really funny.

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And then that’s like kind of the last thing I remember is like all of us laughing and

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like being ready.

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I woke up.

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I don’t think that I was in recovery that long.

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And Matt was able to just like get me in the car and like we got home.

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And I remember getting in the car and being like, they are so small.

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Like I lost it.

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I had like a meltdown on the way home because I was able to like look at my chest through

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my bra.

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And I was like, this is like not the size that I thought it was going to be like losing

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it.

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Right.

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And meanwhile, like I am also swollen too.

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So in my head, I am like, this is how much smaller are these going to get if I’m so swollen.

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So like I am like literally not even home yet from my 15, 20 minute drive from the hospital

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to my apartment.

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And like writing a strongly worded email via my chart about like how unhappy I already am.

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And I was like, stop, like go home.

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I’m going to give it a few days.

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I’m just going to like calm down and curse out my plastic surgeon right now.

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So I went home and I was like just super groggy, kind of like similar how I am today.

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Like I just came home and took a nap.

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And I think I was home by like one or so and just kind of slept on and off all day.

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And I’m not a back sleeper.

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So like that was also difficult like, you know, for the first week.

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But they are also so soft.

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Like I think I texted you and I was like, these are like soft.

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They feel so good and like squishy.

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And like, I think I was just so used to how it over expanded my my one side was that where

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it was like rock hard and how we like could not believe.

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Like I thought that they were going to be like, not saying it’s like a water balloon

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at all, but like I thought it was going to be like a little bit more like solid, I guess.

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But they feel so good and so soft.

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I know when you texted me, I was pretty excited.

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Yeah, to be honest, like that text helped me understand that the process that was about

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to go through is going to be a positive thing for me as well.

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So yeah, definitely.

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I love that you said that text.

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I honestly like I was like thrilled on how they felt like I’m still thrilled on like

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how they feel like I saw my plastic surgeon a week later.

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And they were like really thrilled on like what my results were.

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And like the swelling had gone down and like they definitely looked better than day one.

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I also like had to remember like my skin was being stretched as well.

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Right.

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So that also made it look smaller from the job.

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And I have under the muscle implants, not over the muscle.

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So like I think they just looked really flat when I was on my way home and I needed like

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some time to settle in and like literally every day they look better.

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Like they do.

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I still wish that I was able to go up a size, but like honestly, my plastic surgeon was

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like truly right where I would need a flap surgery in order to go bigger.

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Like my radiated side is about as stretched as it can go.

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She’s like come back in two weeks from after my one week appointment.

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So I went last week and saw them and they’re still like super thrilled with the results.

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But I did mention like my non-cancer side is like a little bit more droopy than my radiated

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side, my cancer side.

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That is because of the skin being as tight as it is.

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So she had mentioned like, you know, that can be fixed with some fat grafting.

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So in my head, I’m like, okay, like I kind of knew that there was there’s going to be

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a revision down the line, but this is a really, really good start.

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She got the symmetry down like perfect.

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That’s good.

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Like they’re like so perfectly symmetrical.

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It’s just my cancer side is just more perkier than the other side.

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So that’s where like the fat grafting will come in.

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I was like thinking like if I did want to go bigger, I can go bigger on my non-radiated

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side.

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I really don’t want to do a flap surgery like at all, but like I’m also at the same time

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like gonna get some second opinions about the same size as I was pre cancer.

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So when I had gone to my three week appointment, she had said like a lot of aqua for on my

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incision.

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You know, she’s like, it’s just very red on my incision.

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She like took a look and she was like, your incision is fully healed.

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She’s like, but so that’s obviously just your radiated skin.

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That’s that’s red.

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And she just said I have to go back next week just to kind of check in.

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I think she just wants to check on my incision, but my incision on my cancer side.

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But other than that, she’s like, they’re really happy with the how I’ve been healing and no

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infections or anything like that.

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Yeah, that’s what you cope for, right?

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Like not to have any issues.

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You and I had spoke yesterday and I had said like, honestly, the most pain that I’ve been

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having is my cancer side where the drains were from my mastectomy and from my lymph

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node removal surgery.

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My plastic surgeon wasn’t able to go in and like clear out that scar tissue because she

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didn’t want to make the pocket too big to where my implant would move.

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And I would have like a big space in between both of my implants.

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Like I said, with the flap, like I don’t want drains again.

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And I also I’m just like, especially now seeing how my skin has reacted to the implant.

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I’m actually scared to have a flap surgery and then just like have my skin not be thrilled

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and then have an infection and just like don’t want to mess with something that’s like not

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giving you issues right now.

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I just don’t want like another big recovery and I don’t want like another like where I

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have to take like major time off.

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Part of me is just like be happy and like maybe let your your radiated side heal for

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a couple years and then revisit it down the line.

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And I don’t know, I’m going back and forth.

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But I feel like right now kind of do want that fat crafting like as soon as I possibly

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can just so that they are like a little bit more the same, you know, up top.

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Like she nailed the symmetry like it’s great.

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I just my non cancer side just like needs a little like it just needs some perkyness

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on top, right?

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Yeah.

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Just like to be a little bit fuller and grant.

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Yeah, I might be able to find a bra that just would sit a little bit to that where I get

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that like projection that I want.

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Right.

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But you know, I’m still in a surgical bras of right now compression bra when the time

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comes and like, you know, like the cellings like a little bit more down and things like

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that.

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But I’m like, I’m going to try again, like try bras and like maybe it won’t bother me.

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Who knows?

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Just for now, just like trying to like just be grateful.

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And you know, I really want to enjoy my summer.

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I really want to swim.

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Like I said, I don’t have to worry about my hair this summer.

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And staying cool and staying out of I mean, I do have to stay out of the sun like, you

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know, I need to protect my skin in general, especially my radiated skin.

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But you know, like I want to be able to go swim.

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Yeah, at the beach, like I want to be able to like jump in a pool like I want to be able

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to just kind of like have the freedom to enjoy my summer and not be restricted.

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I had two different size expanders last year.

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I didn’t even feel comfortable being in a bathing suit in front of anybody.

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So I know now that it’s symmetric, you feel a little bit better wearing a bathing suit.

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Exactly.

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And then also during surgery, I was able to get my scar revision for my port scar because

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it just never healed correctly because of like a stitch that never dissolved and then

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kind of got infected and just like it just looked angry.

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And like I was actually more self conscious about that than like my lopsided boobs, you

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know, in the expanders.

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So my plastic surgeon like revised it and it looks beautiful.

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I have scar sheets on it now like the silicone scar strips.

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I’m taking like really good care of it.

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And I’m hoping that you know, it just, you know, as time goes, like just fades really

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nicely.

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Overall, I am happy.

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I think it’s a really great start.

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I’m really happy that, you know, I did not have any infections.

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I didn’t have any like setbacks as of now.

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With the fat graphing though, did you already set that timeline or did you already speak

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to your plastic surgeon about doing that small operation?

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I’m going next week and I think they’re going to tell me I have to wait at least three months

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for things to settle.

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And so that would bring me to what?

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September timeline.

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Who knows?

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I have a lot of things coming up in the fall, like I have a wedding the beginning of October.

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I have a Vegas trip the end of October.

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So I might even.

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Yeah.

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So I might even just try to save it maybe even for like, I can get it done maybe around

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Christmas time and then have that Christmas time off to just kind of recover.

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For now, just going to let my body heal.

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We had recommended Juven, which is like a wound healing powder, and I talked to my plastic

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surgeon about it and she said, yeah, like some people do it.

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Some people, you know, like we don’t like not recommended.

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It has really good vitamins.

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We just tell you to like wait and start doing it after surgery till after surgery.

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So you know, you could do it twice a day.

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I did it.

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I had like had it in a protein shake like once a day and then I took a supplement called

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wound bite like VIT just to kind of like help my body has a really hard time like dissolving

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sutures.

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I wish I knew this actually after I’m second, how much like our body needs to recover like

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after surgery, after treatment, after anything like I was not aware of this.

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So I really made it a point to make sure that I was getting like enough protein during the

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day in whatever form I could possibly get it.

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And I think it did help.

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Like I instead of going back to work two weeks later, like crazy person, they told me not

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to lift anything for six weeks and I was lifting a child at two weeks.

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I know that’s that’s very bold of you.

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I overdid it.

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But I also like I think it did help my healing process.

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I spent two weeks just like at home, like really not doing much and really trying to

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like let my body rest and heal and doing what I could to just like take care of myself.

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So I think it really did help.

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So but obviously for anybody that like is looking for a supplement like that, obviously

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check with your, you know, surgeons and doctors and things like that.

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I did.

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I did ask and they gave me the idea to do it.

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I think for me, like with my process, the week before my surgery, I tried to exercise

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as much as I could.

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I think maybe I just did it like three times in a week before my surgery day.

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And I was just trying to get my body just prepared for the big day and then also eating

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well.

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What surprises me and maybe this is just due to the doctors, maybe they don’t want to mention

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to their patients on what they should eat and like what they should do before surgery.

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But obviously like they mentioned, you know, you can’t take any supplements two weeks before

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and like make sure you’re not smoking and

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I’d say like, no, like what NSAIDs like you can’t take like ibuprofen, you can’t take

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naproxen or anything like that.

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They have like a whole list, like no vitamin E, I think for two weeks.

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Yes, yes, exactly.

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That’s like the cadence and that could definitely affect your surgery and how you’re feeling.

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But I guess I’m surprised that they don’t put out like wishlist, I guess, or optional

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things that you can do in order to prepare your body.

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Because I was reading online and I was like wondering, okay, do people do anything pre-surgery?

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And yes, like there are things that you can do to pump up your body, make sure that it’s

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well nourished with like, heal well, I guess, after your surgery.

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So trying to make sure that I was eating clean for the past like two weeks before surgery

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and also exercise as much as I could.

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What was your like headspace going into it?

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You know, we had kind of discussed it in our pre-surgery episode, but you were kind of

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struggling.

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After I cried for the past like three to four weeks, I guess I was trying to keep myself

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in a different headspace, meaning like I was trying to keep myself less anxious.

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I was doing a lot of self-care and I was trying to switch my mindset of like, you did all

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the possible things that you could have done, the research, making sure that like the procedure

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that you’re doing will be right for you, the type of implants and all those things.

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I was just telling myself I did the best that I could and I tried to make sure that I chose

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the right path for myself.

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So that’s what put me in a different mindset and where I was no longer nervous, I was just

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ready to get that over with.

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That meaning the surgery.

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You know how the hospital calls you like a few days before to make sure like that you

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didn’t take any of the supplements and making sure that you know where you’re going for

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your surgery date.

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And so I actually thought my hospital was in Santa Monica, where I had my surgery last

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year, but actually it was in Westwood.

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I’m so glad that they called me and said it was going to be in Westwood, which is essentially-

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Imagine you get there, show up to the world.

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I have a funny story actually, because it wasn’t only me that thought this and I’m going

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to get through that.

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So Westwood is actually where my plastic surgeon is based out of, so that made sense.

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The day of the surgery, Brian and I went to the hospital and we sat in the sitting room

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together for about 15 minutes until they called me in and they actually separated us really

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quickly.

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Also Brian never came back.

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A year ago with my surgery, Brian was able to go into my room and talk to me at least

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and be with me.

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I don’t know what happened.

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They just didn’t let him in or I guess he didn’t think he could go in.

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I don’t know what was the deal.

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So I was by myself.

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Matt got to be with me for my surgery up until I walked in and I got to be with me in recovery.

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Yeah, see?

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No, that wasn’t the case.

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So yeah, so Brian didn’t show up.

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And then also it was so funny.

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So I walk in and I was like, okay, let’s get this shit over with, the guy walks me to my

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little room and he gave me a bag and was telling me, oh, these are where your clothes would

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be at.

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And it’s so funny.

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I didn’t see anywhere where he was going to mark that this was the property of Rosalina

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Folleve.

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So there was a whiteboard in my room.

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And so I went towards the whiteboard, grabbed the marker and start writing my name in front

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of him.

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And he was like, ma’am, we have stickers for you.

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And then he showed me my printed name and my date of birth in my head.

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I was like, this guy doesn’t even have anything.

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Well, also I had my wallet and everything.

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I was trying to make sure no one was going to steal my stuff.

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Yeah.

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They have a tag at the NYU that they give you these awesome bags.

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They’re not even plastic.

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They’re like fabric bags, I guess.

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Yeah, they’re really kind of plastic.

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I’ve taken three of them home with me.

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Oh, nice.

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I feel like NYU is a little bit better than what I’ve experienced.

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So I thought that was super funny.

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And then basically they told me to take everything out and undress and put the gown on or whatever.

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And so I sat on the bed.

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And you know how there’s people that are coming to your room asking you questions, asking

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you what type of surgery you’re doing.

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And there is an anesthesiologist that came over and she was super nice.

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I guess I didn’t have the courage to ask her if I was going to do the essential oils.

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I immediately thought that that was going to be the process.

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So I didn’t even ask.

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No, I did not get any essential oils, which I was so bummed about.

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I don’t know if I texted you, Shana, that day.

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Yeah, you said you didn’t get them.

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I didn’t get any essential oils.

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Morale must have been really terrible in that room.

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Not a good start.

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No, not a good start at all.

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So I was like, okay, fuck.

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So anyway, her partner, who’s the other anesthesiologist came over and she was nice, but I didn’t like

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how she approached this.

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She was like, hi there.

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I know that you’re a veteran in this.

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And then in my head I was like, a veteran?

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I don’t want to be a veteran in this process.

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So I was like, I know what she was trying to do, trying to do small talk, but I was

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just seeing right through the bullshit or what I thought it was.

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She told me to put my mask down and then to put my tongue out.

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And then I was wondering what the fuck is she trying to do?

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And then she was asking me to open my mouth even wider and she was trying to look for

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any cracks in my teeth.

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I guess that they take that into consideration when I’m under.

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I don’t know if that happened to you, Shauna, if they asked you to open your mouth.

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It didn’t happen to me.

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Okay.

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Well, yeah.

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I had like today in my endoscopy had to open my mouth because they put a camera down it,

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but they did not ask me to open my mouth.

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Yeah.

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It was-

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Neither time.

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I mean, and that, it didn’t happen to me last year when I had my mastectomy surgery.

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So then my plastic surgeon comes and she’s like out of breath and she’s like, I took

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the stairs because Westwood, if anyone knows Westwood.

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So the elevators in Westwood are such a pain, especially when it is rush hour.

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So rush hour is like the morning and the afternoon.

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So she took the stairs, which I thought was hilarious.

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She came up to me and she was just like drawing on my skin.

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And then she was asking me, oh, like who is here with you today or like who do I need

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to call like after we’re done with your surgery is like, oh, you know, the same guy that was

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with you last year.

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And she’s like, oh, Brian.

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I was like, yeah.

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And then it was so funny.

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Like we both just laughed.

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I said he never left.

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Like it’s the same guy that never left my side.

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So I thought that was hilarious.

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When Matt and I checked in, they were like, who’s going to be picking you up?

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Like we’ll send them text alerts or whatever.

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And that’s, you know, Matt’s like giving them the phone number and going to walk away.

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And he’s like, when I get that text, I’m just going to be like, sorry, wrong number.

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Like as a joke, you know, and I was kind of like, yeah, you can leave me here.

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I love this hospital.

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I’ll stay here forever.

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Then my breast surgeon comes and she’s like relaxed, but she comes over and she’s like,

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oh, I thought you were late.

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And then I was like, what do you mean?

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And she’s like, I was in Santa Monica.

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I was in the Santa Monica location and I was wondering where you were.

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Mondays are really not her surgery days.

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She only was doing this for me.

454

00:26:34,660 –> 00:26:39,520

And usually she’s at the Santa Monica location and not Westwood.

455

00:26:39,520 –> 00:26:42,720

She went to the wrong hospital.

456

00:26:42,720 –> 00:26:46,480

Actually, it is so funny.

457

00:26:46,480 –> 00:26:54,400

I always wondered that because, and I don’t know about your doctors, but like my doctors,

458

00:26:54,400 –> 00:26:59,240

they are at like three different locations in a week.

459

00:26:59,240 –> 00:27:03,640

Like they’re at the Santa Monica, they’re at the Beverly Hills or Westwood.

460

00:27:03,640 –> 00:27:07,800

So I’m like, don’t they get confused which days are going to be where?

461

00:27:07,800 –> 00:27:08,800

And then that confirmed.

462

00:27:08,800 –> 00:27:09,800

Yeah.

463

00:27:09,800 –> 00:27:10,800

Oh my God.

464

00:27:10,800 –> 00:27:13,600

So how far is that between Santa Monica and Westwood?

465

00:27:13,600 –> 00:27:15,120

It was like 15 minutes.

466

00:27:15,120 –> 00:27:16,120

Okay.

467

00:27:16,120 –> 00:27:17,120

So it’s super close.

468

00:27:17,120 –> 00:27:18,120

I know.

469

00:27:18,120 –> 00:27:19,120

I had to delay every surgery.

470

00:27:19,120 –> 00:27:20,120

I know.

471

00:27:20,120 –> 00:27:26,240

When I told this story to my mom, my mom, you know what she said?

472

00:27:26,240 –> 00:27:31,200

She was like, oh, well, I hope she didn’t forget how to do the surgery.

473

00:27:31,200 –> 00:27:36,800

And I’m like, oh my God, like, no, I wasn’t even talked about.

474

00:27:36,800 –> 00:27:38,440

I know, I know.

475

00:27:38,440 –> 00:27:42,040

And then they ask you to like for surgery, like, well, they say like, what are you here

476

00:27:42,040 –> 00:27:43,040

for?

477

00:27:43,040 –> 00:27:46,900

Like they double check to to make sure like the, you know, they know, like they’re not

478

00:27:46,900 –> 00:27:48,760

wheeling you into a surgery.

479

00:27:48,760 –> 00:27:50,360

You don’t get what you came in for.

480

00:27:50,360 –> 00:27:51,360

Yeah.

481

00:27:51,360 –> 00:27:56,000

But then she came to me because we had a conversation explained again, like what she was going to

482

00:27:56,000 –> 00:27:57,000

do.

483

00:27:57,000 –> 00:27:58,000

Yeah.

484

00:27:58,000 –> 00:27:59,000

Yeah.

485

00:27:59,000 –> 00:28:02,600

So I was like, I’m going to go under and then when I woke up, I was actually in pain.

486

00:28:02,600 –> 00:28:05,960

They gave me Oxy right off the bat.

487

00:28:05,960 –> 00:28:10,400

The thing that I thought was so weird and I told you this is Shauna because I was pretty

488

00:28:10,400 –> 00:28:11,400

bad.

489

00:28:11,400 –> 00:28:14,480

They were trying to rush me.

490

00:28:14,480 –> 00:28:18,240

I woke up and then she’s like, how are you feeling?

491

00:28:18,240 –> 00:28:19,240

Blah, blah, blah, whatever.

492

00:28:19,240 –> 00:28:20,440

And then I’m like, oh, I’m in pain.

493

00:28:20,440 –> 00:28:25,040

Then she gave me the Oxy and then she’s like, oh, do you want anything to drink or eat?

494

00:28:25,040 –> 00:28:26,480

And then I’m like, yeah, sure.

495

00:28:26,480 –> 00:28:28,820

Which I never eat at the hospital.

496

00:28:28,820 –> 00:28:34,240

But I would gladly drink water or apple juice or whatever they have.

497

00:28:34,240 –> 00:28:38,520

After I was done, which was like two minutes, she’s like, okay, let’s put your clothes on.

498

00:28:38,520 –> 00:28:39,520

And I’m like, oh my God.

499

00:28:39,520 –> 00:28:42,600

In my head, I was like, holy shit.

500

00:28:42,600 –> 00:28:43,600

Yeah.

501

00:28:43,600 –> 00:28:47,720

Where was the surgery or mastectomy when you were like, get me the fuck out of here?

502

00:28:47,720 –> 00:28:48,720

Where was this thing?

503

00:28:48,720 –> 00:28:49,720

I know.

504

00:28:49,720 –> 00:28:50,720

I know.

505

00:28:50,720 –> 00:28:53,120

I didn’t want to leave in 30 minutes.

506

00:28:53,120 –> 00:28:54,380

Give me an hour.

507

00:28:54,380 –> 00:28:56,120

I need to still process.

508

00:28:56,120 –> 00:28:57,120

You want in a moment.

509

00:28:57,120 –> 00:28:58,120

Yeah.

510

00:28:58,120 –> 00:28:59,120

I’m like an anesthesiologist.

511

00:28:59,120 –> 00:29:03,520

I’m literally covering my face because she told me this story already.

512

00:29:03,520 –> 00:29:06,940

She put the needle in my hand.

513

00:29:06,940 –> 00:29:09,800

So when I was putting my clothes on, there was nothing attached.

514

00:29:09,800 –> 00:29:13,560

And then I was a little mad that she told me to put my clothes on right away.

515

00:29:13,560 –> 00:29:17,720

And I was like, okay, this bitch is not going to take my IV out.

516

00:29:17,720 –> 00:29:18,720

So I’m going to take it out.

517

00:29:18,720 –> 00:29:23,520

She told me this and I was like, oh my God.

518

00:29:23,520 –> 00:29:24,520

Oh my God.

519

00:29:24,520 –> 00:29:25,520

I know.

520

00:29:25,520 –> 00:29:28,320

I know that she put herself like in your hand.

521

00:29:28,320 –> 00:29:30,880

I wouldn’t even let them put one in my hand.

522

00:29:30,880 –> 00:29:32,320

I don’t let them.

523

00:29:32,320 –> 00:29:34,240

I literally got blood taken last week.

524

00:29:34,240 –> 00:29:36,640

They took it out of my wrist because they couldn’t find a vein.

525

00:29:36,640 –> 00:29:39,160

My wrist right here on my right.

526

00:29:39,160 –> 00:29:41,600

I won’t let them use my hand.

527

00:29:41,600 –> 00:29:43,480

And you went and took your own out.

528

00:29:43,480 –> 00:29:47,520

And I am wanting to crawl out of my own skin right now thinking about it.

529

00:29:47,520 –> 00:29:48,520

It wasn’t bad.

530

00:29:48,520 –> 00:29:49,520

You’re a lunatic.

531

00:29:49,520 –> 00:29:50,520

It was bad.

532

00:29:50,520 –> 00:29:51,520

I know.

533

00:29:51,520 –> 00:29:52,520

I know.

534

00:29:52,520 –> 00:29:54,520

I know that I am.

535

00:29:54,520 –> 00:29:55,520

Yeah.

536

00:29:55,520 –> 00:29:58,360

So then, you know, when I took it out, obviously I was bleeding a little bit.

537

00:29:58,360 –> 00:30:00,880

There was a nurse who came by.

538

00:30:00,880 –> 00:30:02,360

He was like, oh, is everything all right?

539

00:30:02,360 –> 00:30:05,000

I was like, can I get a band-aid?

540

00:30:05,000 –> 00:30:08,280

Because I like to take a tissue and then put it on my hand.

541

00:30:08,280 –> 00:30:12,640

And the other nurse came by and she’s like, oh, you’re not supposed to take your IV out.

542

00:30:12,640 –> 00:30:15,200

Like the doctor is supposed to see you, blah, blah, blah.

543

00:30:15,200 –> 00:30:18,320

Which the doctor never did, first of all.

544

00:30:18,320 –> 00:30:21,000

So I don’t know what the hell she was talking about.

545

00:30:21,000 –> 00:30:25,600

And then she was telling me that she was trying to call Brian to come.

546

00:30:25,600 –> 00:30:29,360

But then she was like, can you call him and tell him he needs to be here?

547

00:30:29,360 –> 00:30:32,560

Like in my head, I was like, what is going on?

548

00:30:32,560 –> 00:30:35,720

Why do they want to kick me out so badly?

549

00:30:35,720 –> 00:30:39,160

So I was very confused.

550

00:30:39,160 –> 00:30:42,000

And did you even have your phone at that point?

551

00:30:42,000 –> 00:30:43,000

They checked your stuff.

552

00:30:43,000 –> 00:30:44,760

Like you can’t bring your phone into surgery.

553

00:30:44,760 –> 00:30:45,760

I didn’t even have my phone.

554

00:30:45,760 –> 00:30:47,760

Well, when I woke up is what I meant.

555

00:30:47,760 –> 00:30:51,160

Like when I woke up, they already had my bag.

556

00:30:51,160 –> 00:30:52,160

Oh, okay.

557

00:30:52,160 –> 00:30:53,160

Yeah.

558

00:30:53,160 –> 00:30:54,160

I didn’t have my bag.

559

00:30:54,160 –> 00:30:55,160

Yeah.

560

00:30:55,160 –> 00:30:56,160

No, they made sure.

561

00:30:56,160 –> 00:30:57,160

Did Brian answer the phone?

562

00:30:57,160 –> 00:30:58,160

He did.

563

00:30:58,160 –> 00:31:02,400

He did answer the phone and he was trying to get there.

564

00:31:02,400 –> 00:31:06,360

Brian was able to be there in like the next 10 minutes.

565

00:31:06,360 –> 00:31:09,160

And so they wheeled me all the way downstairs.

566

00:31:09,160 –> 00:31:15,200

Brian was like, I thought they were calling me because you wanted to leave like last time.

567

00:31:15,200 –> 00:31:17,160

And I was like, no.

568

00:31:17,160 –> 00:31:20,600

They were just trying to rush me out of the hospital.

569

00:31:20,600 –> 00:31:22,720

That’s what they’re trying to do.

570

00:31:22,720 –> 00:31:27,800

But then like when I saw everyone else in their room, like I saw like people having

571

00:31:27,800 –> 00:31:31,720

visitors, I had surgery.

572

00:31:31,720 –> 00:31:34,040

It doesn’t matter what type of surgery I had.

573

00:31:34,040 –> 00:31:39,580

Like I should be able to stay until I feel better.

574

00:31:39,580 –> 00:31:43,680

So I thought that was so bizarre and not a great experience.

575

00:31:43,680 –> 00:31:47,800

So I don’t really like that Westwood Hospital anymore.

576

00:31:47,800 –> 00:31:52,720

I’m not upset anymore, but I was in that week.

577

00:31:52,720 –> 00:31:55,600

So you never saw your plastic surgeon.

578

00:31:55,600 –> 00:31:57,720

So then when did you have your post-op?

579

00:31:57,720 –> 00:32:00,200

I had it for like a week after.

580

00:32:00,200 –> 00:32:01,200

Here was the thing.

581

00:32:01,200 –> 00:32:09,560

I was supposed to see both Dr. Baker, my breast surgeon for the pathology report because remember

582

00:32:09,560 –> 00:32:16,160

in the last episode, she was taking that skin where the positive margin was.

583

00:32:16,160 –> 00:32:19,000

You didn’t get a clean margin for surgery.

584

00:32:19,000 –> 00:32:25,440

We were supposed to have the pathology report by then, but the pathology department was

585

00:32:25,440 –> 00:32:29,800

just from what Dr. Baker told me because she called me, they were like backed up.

586

00:32:29,800 –> 00:32:32,320

Like they, I was like, I never heard this before.

587

00:32:32,320 –> 00:32:35,160

Like a pathology department like being backed up.

588

00:32:35,160 –> 00:32:36,160

Yeah.

589

00:32:36,160 –> 00:32:37,160

Like what does that even mean?

590

00:32:37,160 –> 00:32:38,160

Yeah.

591

00:32:38,160 –> 00:32:41,440

Does that mean that a lot of more people are getting tested?

592

00:32:41,440 –> 00:32:46,360

I don’t know because I just tried to make an appointment for like other, another specialist

593

00:32:46,360 –> 00:32:51,800

for something unrelated, but everyone’s booked out until like October.

594

00:32:51,800 –> 00:32:53,320

I don’t know what’s going on.

595

00:32:53,320 –> 00:32:56,640

I don’t know if like maybe some doctors are also just like taking time off between the

596

00:32:56,640 –> 00:33:01,740

pandemic and like having to catch up from the pandemic that this is like now their time

597

00:33:01,740 –> 00:33:06,780

to be able to like, I don’t know, like back on certain things or like, or if people are

598

00:33:06,780 –> 00:33:10,840

still just playing catch up from the pandemic and just like finally getting in to see all

599

00:33:10,840 –> 00:33:16,640

these doctors and like, who knows, you know, all the things that, you know, I don’t know,

600

00:33:16,640 –> 00:33:19,200

like just people have been put up like putting off.

601

00:33:19,200 –> 00:33:20,200

Yeah.

602

00:33:20,200 –> 00:33:22,040

I’m not sure what’s going on.

603

00:33:22,040 –> 00:33:28,680

So I wasn’t able to see Dr. Baker the week after, but I was able to see Dr. Slack.

604

00:33:28,680 –> 00:33:34,840

And to be honest, when I saw her, I felt that the appointment was really short.

605

00:33:34,840 –> 00:33:38,680

Like she only saw me for like 15 minutes.

606

00:33:38,680 –> 00:33:40,720

My appointment was really short too.

607

00:33:40,720 –> 00:33:42,520

How was the recovery for the first week?

608

00:33:42,520 –> 00:33:46,000

Like were you in a lot of pain, discomfort?

609

00:33:46,000 –> 00:33:48,080

Did you get to see what they looked like?

610

00:33:48,080 –> 00:33:51,680

Were you raging like I was the second I left the hospital?

611

00:33:51,680 –> 00:33:53,480

Like what were you?

612

00:33:53,480 –> 00:33:55,040

Yeah, no.

613

00:33:55,040 –> 00:33:56,040

Yeah.

614

00:33:56,040 –> 00:34:06,920

So I was in pain for about like three days and the pain was more on my right side.

615

00:34:06,920 –> 00:34:14,000

So I had a breast augmentation on the right and they put the smallest implant in there.

616

00:34:14,000 –> 00:34:16,540

It was just a very weird feeling.

617

00:34:16,540 –> 00:34:20,260

I was really swollen on that side.

618

00:34:20,260 –> 00:34:21,740

And it was over the muscle.

619

00:34:21,740 –> 00:34:23,060

It was under the muscle.

620

00:34:23,060 –> 00:34:24,680

So that one is under the muscle.

621

00:34:24,680 –> 00:34:25,680

Okay.

622

00:34:25,680 –> 00:34:28,160

And my left side is over the muscle.

623

00:34:28,160 –> 00:34:29,160

Okay.

624

00:34:29,160 –> 00:34:30,160

Got it.

625

00:34:30,160 –> 00:34:33,480

When I first saw them, they looked symmetrical.

626

00:34:33,480 –> 00:34:35,360

I was very surprised.

627

00:34:35,360 –> 00:34:39,120

And then that confirmed my worry.

628

00:34:39,120 –> 00:34:46,560

Over the past few months and weeks, I was concerned about doing anything to my right

629

00:34:46,560 –> 00:34:51,440

side and I was close to not wanting to do anything.

630

00:34:51,440 –> 00:34:55,360

But my plastic surgeon told me like, if you don’t do anything on the right side, it’s

631

00:34:55,360 –> 00:34:58,080

going to be asymmetrical.

632

00:34:58,080 –> 00:35:06,520

When I saw my boobs for the first time post surgery, I was like, damn, she is right.

633

00:35:06,520 –> 00:35:13,800

So I’m glad that I went to the route of doing something to the right side, even if it was

634

00:35:13,800 –> 00:35:16,720

a small implant.

635

00:35:16,720 –> 00:35:22,760

Brian’s family had a birthday dinner and I was hesitant to go.

636

00:35:22,760 –> 00:35:30,500

Like I wasn’t sure how I felt and then also like only his parents knows about my surgery,

637

00:35:30,500 –> 00:35:33,160

but like his cousins and his aunt and uncle did it.

638

00:35:33,160 –> 00:35:37,560

So my first thought was like, I can’t hug people.

639

00:35:37,560 –> 00:35:39,280

That was the big thing for me.

640

00:35:39,280 –> 00:35:40,920

What am I supposed to do?

641

00:35:40,920 –> 00:35:41,920

Yeah.

642

00:35:41,920 –> 00:35:42,920

Yeah.

643

00:35:42,920 –> 00:35:43,920

Yeah.

644

00:35:43,920 –> 00:35:48,520

We had gone to like a first birthday to see like a lot of our friends that we haven’t

645

00:35:48,520 –> 00:35:50,220

seen in like a while.

646

00:35:50,220 –> 00:35:55,220

And I felt like I had to do that weird like where you stick your butt out and like give

647

00:35:55,220 –> 00:35:57,840

somebody like a hug from afar.

648

00:35:57,840 –> 00:36:02,760

I was just going to say, yes, I did the same exact thing.

649

00:36:02,760 –> 00:36:04,500

A lot of that.

650

00:36:04,500 –> 00:36:08,640

And then granted that was like almost closer to like the two week mark and I was still

651

00:36:08,640 –> 00:36:09,640

scared.

652

00:36:09,640 –> 00:36:12,360

Oh, it was just a few days.

653

00:36:12,360 –> 00:36:13,360

Yeah.

654

00:36:13,360 –> 00:36:18,880

I went and his cousins drove us to the restaurant.

655

00:36:18,880 –> 00:36:27,520

There was this one moment where like he took a really sharp turn and oh my God, my right

656

00:36:27,520 –> 00:36:33,280

side hurt so bad that it was like, holy fuck.

657

00:36:33,280 –> 00:36:38,640

I feel like I can’t even breathe essentially, which I mean I could.

658

00:36:38,640 –> 00:36:44,560

I felt so stiff that I didn’t want to move much because then I felt like it was going

659

00:36:44,560 –> 00:36:45,840

to hurt even more.

660

00:36:45,840 –> 00:36:49,760

I was uncomfortable at the restaurant for the whole night.

661

00:36:49,760 –> 00:36:50,760

Yeah.

662

00:36:50,760 –> 00:36:55,200

Then I got worried because I was like, fuck, like this right side is giving me a little

663

00:36:55,200 –> 00:36:57,160

problems here.

664

00:36:57,160 –> 00:37:02,280

I didn’t want anything to happen, you know, and also the swelling to like, like when I

665

00:37:02,280 –> 00:37:06,640

did too much, like how many days after did you go to that dinner?

666

00:37:06,640 –> 00:37:09,120

It was like five, five days.

667

00:37:09,120 –> 00:37:10,120

Okay.

668

00:37:10,120 –> 00:37:14,000

Well, I went to a concert three days after surgery because I was like, I don’t care if

669

00:37:14,000 –> 00:37:19,620

I’m dying and bleeding out, like I’m going to see the concert at this venue that I wanted

670

00:37:19,620 –> 00:37:20,620

to go to.

671

00:37:20,620 –> 00:37:21,620

And it was Bon Iver.

672

00:37:21,620 –> 00:37:26,480

So it wasn’t like anything wild, but like I was adamant about going.

673

00:37:26,480 –> 00:37:28,080

Thank God, like the weather was perfect.

674

00:37:28,080 –> 00:37:31,440

So I wasn’t super tense, but like I did too much.

675

00:37:31,440 –> 00:37:35,760

I felt swollen after I felt like I had overdone it.

676

00:37:35,760 –> 00:37:38,240

And I don’t know, like I’m still wearing a pillow.

677

00:37:38,240 –> 00:37:41,680

Like now I’m how many weeks post-op right now?

678

00:37:41,680 –> 00:37:43,000

Almost a month.

679

00:37:43,000 –> 00:37:46,280

And I still like driving with a pillow.

680

00:37:46,280 –> 00:37:47,280

I still have a pillow.

681

00:37:47,280 –> 00:37:50,880

I can’t believe that the seatbelt hurts so bad.

682

00:37:50,880 –> 00:37:51,880

Yeah.

683

00:37:51,880 –> 00:37:57,880

You went to a concert and I also went to a concert, but mine was two weeks after.

684

00:37:57,880 –> 00:38:01,480

And you went to like a dance, like yours, you guys were rave.

685

00:38:01,480 –> 00:38:05,080

But it was actually very calm.

686

00:38:05,080 –> 00:38:06,080

Yeah.

687

00:38:06,080 –> 00:38:10,520

Let me just say, it’s not like people were, it didn’t look calm.

688

00:38:10,520 –> 00:38:11,520

No.

689

00:38:11,520 –> 00:38:12,520

It was.

690

00:38:12,520 –> 00:38:16,120

It really was calmer than what you would have thought.

691

00:38:16,120 –> 00:38:17,840

Like a rave would look like.

692

00:38:17,840 –> 00:38:25,520

So Brian and I were like in the crowd, but we were kind of in a section where not a lot

693

00:38:25,520 –> 00:38:27,600

of people coming through.

694

00:38:27,600 –> 00:38:29,680

So that was my only concern.

695

00:38:29,680 –> 00:38:36,480

Every time I would like cross through to like different people around just to get anywhere,

696

00:38:36,480 –> 00:38:45,040

I would have like my arm across my chest so I could protect the chest as all cops.

697

00:38:45,040 –> 00:38:47,560

We had seats, thank God.

698

00:38:47,560 –> 00:38:49,200

But I was super nervous.

699

00:38:49,200 –> 00:38:50,200

I felt really bad.

700

00:38:50,200 –> 00:38:54,920

Like we walked in and it’s an outdoor like amphitheater that we went to and it’s not

701

00:38:54,920 –> 00:38:59,320

big, but getting into it was a little hectic.

702

00:38:59,320 –> 00:39:00,320

And I felt so bad.

703

00:39:00,320 –> 00:39:03,840

Like Matt had a coworker that was there and he introduced me.

704

00:39:03,840 –> 00:39:08,920

And I’m like, I’m also, I’ve realized as I’ve gotten older, like I love concerts, but I’m

705

00:39:08,920 –> 00:39:10,200

not good in crowds.

706

00:39:10,200 –> 00:39:14,440

Like I get super overwhelmed when there’s like a lot of people around me at one time.

707

00:39:14,440 –> 00:39:15,800

Like once I’m there, I’m fine.

708

00:39:15,800 –> 00:39:19,360

But like getting through large crowds, it’s like a panic for me.

709

00:39:19,360 –> 00:39:23,480

So like not only was like I already panicked, but then like I’m like, if somebody bumps

710

00:39:23,480 –> 00:39:26,360

into me, it’s going to ruin my whole night.

711

00:39:26,360 –> 00:39:27,360

And it’s like, I’m going to be hurt.

712

00:39:27,360 –> 00:39:29,020

I’m going to have to leave.

713

00:39:29,020 –> 00:39:34,040

So I was just super anxious about that.

714

00:39:34,040 –> 00:39:39,080

And then Matt introduced me to his coworker and like, I was so just like, oh my God, I

715

00:39:39,080 –> 00:39:40,240

felt like I was so rude.

716

00:39:40,240 –> 00:39:44,240

Like I said to Matt, like, I feel really like I was kind of rude to this girl.

717

00:39:44,240 –> 00:39:45,240

And like, he’s apologized.

718

00:39:45,240 –> 00:39:50,240

Like I was just like kind of really focused on like getting to where I needed to go without

719

00:39:50,240 –> 00:39:51,240

getting hurt.

720

00:39:51,240 –> 00:39:54,320

And like also getting through this crowd without having a panic attack.

721

00:39:54,320 –> 00:39:58,080

I don’t know how you were like, like, like you didn’t have a seat.

722

00:39:58,080 –> 00:40:01,360

I saw that I was like, oh man.

723

00:40:01,360 –> 00:40:02,360

No.

724

00:40:02,360 –> 00:40:03,360

Yeah.

725

00:40:03,360 –> 00:40:07,960

Like I said, like it wasn’t a rowdy crowd.

726

00:40:07,960 –> 00:40:14,760

So I saw Sophie Tucker, if anyone knows who they are, but it was a really great show.

727

00:40:14,760 –> 00:40:20,800

And I’m so glad I kind of went back to my appointment with my plastic surgeon.

728

00:40:20,800 –> 00:40:25,440

I saw her for about 15 minutes and she was really happy with the results.

729

00:40:25,440 –> 00:40:30,640

I felt like I didn’t have enough time to process everything.

730

00:40:30,640 –> 00:40:34,680

Like even though I spent like maybe like 15 minutes with her, I just felt like it was

731

00:40:34,680 –> 00:40:35,880

i just rushed.

732

00:40:35,880 –> 00:40:39,640

I felt I had questions afterwards.

733

00:40:39,640 –> 00:40:44,680

So what I did was I went into my chart and asked all the questions.

734

00:40:44,680 –> 00:40:49,680

The other thing that happened almost three weeks ago.

735

00:40:49,680 –> 00:40:57,600

So I had sutures on both breasts and it got to the point where it was like getting really

736

00:40:57,600 –> 00:40:58,600

irritated.

737

00:40:58,600 –> 00:40:59,600

And it’s so funny.

738

00:40:59,600 –> 00:41:06,480

I told my boyfriend Brian was like, I feel like I’m back at radiation.

739

00:41:06,480 –> 00:41:12,880

Like the feeling of it being super itchy and irritated and agitated and all those things.

740

00:41:12,880 –> 00:41:16,600

Like I just felt like I’m back at radiation.

741

00:41:16,600 –> 00:41:23,080

Brian took a picture where it was like irritated, which was again on the right side where I

742

00:41:23,080 –> 00:41:27,880

had my incision underneath the breast and it looked red.

743

00:41:27,880 –> 00:41:28,880

It looked angry.

744

00:41:28,880 –> 00:41:29,880

So I took a picture.

745

00:41:29,880 –> 00:41:34,360

I sent it to my plastic surgeon and I’m so glad that she responded right away.

746

00:41:34,360 –> 00:41:36,280

She said, yeah, let’s bring you in.

747

00:41:36,280 –> 00:41:39,560

It seems like we just need to cut those things out.

748

00:41:39,560 –> 00:41:40,920

I knew you’d be fine.

749

00:41:40,920 –> 00:41:49,200

Two days after I saw her she was able to cut those out and now I feel so much better.

750

00:41:49,200 –> 00:41:51,000

Let me tell you.

751

00:41:51,000 –> 00:41:56,400

Just overall like with how my breasts are looking, they look great.

752

00:41:56,400 –> 00:42:02,480

The one thing I would say that bothered me just a little bit is, you know, I have one

753

00:42:02,480 –> 00:42:05,960

nipple on my right side and then no nipple on the left.

754

00:42:05,960 –> 00:42:14,200

And so with the right side, like you can tell that it’s a little bit out because obviously

755

00:42:14,200 –> 00:42:16,200

I had a nipple on the right side.

756

00:42:16,200 –> 00:42:19,440

So the left side, it just looks a little bit flatter.

757

00:42:19,440 –> 00:42:24,000

That’s my only thing that I’m kind of iffy about.

758

00:42:24,000 –> 00:42:29,160

But again, it’s not to the point where I’m not happy about it.

759

00:42:29,160 –> 00:42:31,360

It’s just something that I’ve noticed.

760

00:42:31,360 –> 00:42:37,720

But when I was wearing different bras just to see how they look, they looked great.

761

00:42:37,720 –> 00:42:39,280

I’m not going to lie.

762

00:42:39,280 –> 00:42:44,160

We ever discussed whether or not we wanted any type of nipple reconstruction or tattoos

763

00:42:44,160 –> 00:42:45,160

or anything?

764

00:42:45,160 –> 00:42:46,160

Yeah, we did.

765

00:42:46,160 –> 00:42:47,160

Yes.

766

00:42:47,160 –> 00:42:50,120

Yeah, and I told you no.

767

00:42:50,120 –> 00:42:51,280

I don’t want it either.

768

00:42:51,280 –> 00:42:52,720

I’m uninterested in it.

769

00:42:52,720 –> 00:42:57,720

I actually like not having anything because I don’t like wearing a bra.

770

00:42:57,720 –> 00:42:58,720

So that’s fine.

771

00:42:58,720 –> 00:43:04,480

There was like a woman in the breast reconstruction group who got nipple tattoos and then ended

772

00:43:04,480 –> 00:43:09,680

up having to get her implant removed because it got infected.

773

00:43:09,680 –> 00:43:14,480

And now I’m like, I absolutely even if I thought about doing it, that took any and all chance

774

00:43:14,480 –> 00:43:15,880

of me ever doing it now.

775

00:43:15,880 –> 00:43:16,880

I know me too.

776

00:43:16,880 –> 00:43:18,440

I’m not interested.

777

00:43:18,440 –> 00:43:19,440

Yeah.

778

00:43:19,440 –> 00:43:20,440

Okay.

779

00:43:20,440 –> 00:43:25,560

For anybody who is like, you know, it’s just like for my my personal stand, like I just

780

00:43:25,560 –> 00:43:28,040

i don’t want to have to.

781

00:43:28,040 –> 00:43:38,320

I’ve come to terms with how my scars look and being okay with looking at them.

782

00:43:38,320 –> 00:43:48,520

So if I did any like nipple tattooing, I think it would for me, it wouldn’t amplify my feeling

783

00:43:48,520 –> 00:43:52,480

about the situation, like how it should look.

784

00:43:52,480 –> 00:43:53,480

Right.

785

00:43:53,480 –> 00:43:54,920

I guess I agree.

786

00:43:54,920 –> 00:43:55,920

Yeah.

787

00:43:55,920 –> 00:44:01,280

The last thing I actually want to mention, I finally got my pathology report like a week

788

00:44:01,280 –> 00:44:02,280

later.

789

00:44:02,280 –> 00:44:10,080

I wasn’t like nervous per se, but I totally experienced for me ever since I had the positive

790

00:44:10,080 –> 00:44:15,480

margin like then back in my head, I was always like, okay, what if, what if, you know, I

791

00:44:15,480 –> 00:44:18,520

could have a recurrence at any moment.

792

00:44:18,520 –> 00:44:26,480

You were happy with taking the next step into removing the expander and getting implants.

793

00:44:26,480 –> 00:44:34,680

And like, I was still in the position where I’m like, okay, I still have this like reoccurring

794

00:44:34,680 –> 00:44:43,800

thought of if the pathology report comes back that it’s still positive, I don’t know what

795

00:44:43,800 –> 00:44:44,800

I would do it.

796

00:44:44,800 –> 00:44:50,600

So I needed to close that chapter once I got that pathology report.

797

00:44:50,600 –> 00:44:51,600

Yeah.

798

00:44:51,600 –> 00:44:55,880

Dr. Baker messaged me and she’s like, great news.

799

00:44:55,880 –> 00:45:03,680

The pathology report says that the skin was benign.

800

00:45:03,680 –> 00:45:08,000

And I was like, holy fuck, this is like, this is fantastic.

801

00:45:08,000 –> 00:45:11,920

So I, I texted you Sean, I was like, I was so excited.

802

00:45:11,920 –> 00:45:13,280

I was very excited.

803

00:45:13,280 –> 00:45:16,200

I felt like I could close that chapter.

804

00:45:16,200 –> 00:45:17,200

Like that’s what I wanted.

805

00:45:17,200 –> 00:45:22,520

I was in an Uber when you texted that and like, I literally texted you what I said out

806

00:45:22,520 –> 00:45:23,520

loud in the Uber.

807

00:45:23,520 –> 00:45:24,520

I was like, fuck yes.

808

00:45:24,520 –> 00:45:25,520

Yeah, fuck yes.

809

00:45:25,520 –> 00:45:26,520

Yeah, I remember.

810

00:45:26,520 –> 00:45:27,520

Yeah.

811

00:45:27,520 –> 00:45:36,280

Because the other thing was like, you know, I asked my oncologist on my birthday, like,

812

00:45:36,280 –> 00:45:37,600

you know, am I considered NED?

813

00:45:37,600 –> 00:45:39,480

And then she was like, yeah.

814

00:45:39,480 –> 00:45:45,560

But then like me personally, I didn’t feel that that was enough.

815

00:45:45,560 –> 00:45:50,680

Like yes, you can say yes, because you, we did all the treatments that were required.

816

00:45:50,680 –> 00:45:54,560

And also I’m doing this hormonal therapy, but I needed something more.

817

00:45:54,560 –> 00:46:00,040

And of course like that, like going back into surgery and removing that skin was one of

818

00:46:00,040 –> 00:46:01,040

them.

819

00:46:01,040 –> 00:46:09,920

And then I also took the Stignatera test, which detects early recurrence if there’s

820

00:46:09,920 –> 00:46:15,360

any circulating tumor cells that came out negative that there wasn’t anything.

821

00:46:15,360 –> 00:46:20,400

And then also this pathology report saying that the skin was a benign, like that makes

822

00:46:20,400 –> 00:46:23,460

i feel a lot better.

823

00:46:23,460 –> 00:46:29,480

It also made me think about choosing the right care team.

824

00:46:29,480 –> 00:46:39,920

I chose the right treatments and that those treatments that I did like helped me remove

825

00:46:39,920 –> 00:46:42,720

any remaining cancer cells that were in my body.

826

00:46:42,720 –> 00:46:49,360

Yes, I still need to do an annual checkup, making sure that there isn’t any continue

827

00:46:49,360 –> 00:46:56,080

with my hormonal therapy for the next, you know, four and a half years.

828

00:46:56,080 –> 00:47:07,080

But for right now, I feel like I could just relax and not worry as of right now about

829

00:47:07,080 –> 00:47:08,080

recurrence.

830

00:47:08,080 –> 00:47:13,040

I’m so happy that you got the results that we were both hoping for.

831

00:47:13,040 –> 00:47:15,640

And just, yeah, like that closing the book feels great.

832

00:47:15,640 –> 00:47:16,640

Like don’t get me wrong.

833

00:47:16,640 –> 00:47:20,000

There’s things that I think are always going to come up.

834

00:47:20,000 –> 00:47:21,320

I’ve loved season two.

835

00:47:21,320 –> 00:47:23,000

I think we’ve grown so much.

836

00:47:23,000 –> 00:47:26,960

Especially I think we’ve kind of found our groove now again.

837

00:47:26,960 –> 00:47:31,480

Like I feel like season one was such a way of trying to figure it all out.

838

00:47:31,480 –> 00:47:36,640

And I feel like this season, like such a, I don’t know, it’s we’ve found our groove

839

00:47:36,640 –> 00:47:39,560

and like what works for us and how it works.

840

00:47:39,560 –> 00:47:44,720

And I’m even more excited about launching this one than I was about season one.

841

00:47:44,720 –> 00:47:51,560

Season two was very special in the sense that like now, you know, we were out of treatment

842

00:47:51,560 –> 00:47:57,880

and we’re trying to navigate what it is like post cancer.

843

00:47:57,880 –> 00:48:03,840

And obviously we both had our ups and downs throughout this journey and it will still

844

00:48:03,840 –> 00:48:06,280

continue that way.

845

00:48:06,280 –> 00:48:12,460

And again, it was real and in real time, just like it was like kind of recording through

846

00:48:12,460 –> 00:48:14,000

chemo and like that treatment.

847

00:48:14,000 –> 00:48:19,280

Like everything we did was again, like real, like in real time.

848

00:48:19,280 –> 00:48:24,680

And I just think that that is like even us going back to like, listen, I recently have

849

00:48:24,680 –> 00:48:27,280

i went back and listened to a few episodes of season one.

850

00:48:27,280 –> 00:48:34,000

And I’m like, wow, I forgot not for you never really forget, but like I forgot like those

851

00:48:34,000 –> 00:48:39,120

feelings like on that particular chemo day, you know, and I just really lost it.

852

00:48:39,120 –> 00:48:44,680

Or like I look back on season two now and wow, I really had a really rough though.

853

00:48:44,680 –> 00:48:51,440

Like being in the thick of it, you know, you have those feelings and just like, I don’t

854

00:48:51,440 –> 00:48:56,080

know, just I’m going to listen to this again and just be like, wow, you know, like post

855

00:48:56,080 –> 00:48:59,680

treatment really was not kind to me.

856

00:48:59,680 –> 00:49:00,680

Yeah.

857

00:49:00,680 –> 00:49:11,240

I’m also just excited about the future and you know, putting out season three and Sean

858

00:49:11,240 –> 00:49:17,520

and I have so many ideas, so ecstatic to start working on that.

859

00:49:17,520 –> 00:49:21,640

I just want to like touch too on just like the amount of people that have like been reaching

860

00:49:21,640 –> 00:49:26,400

out to us like on social media and you know, emails and things like that.

861

00:49:26,400 –> 00:49:31,600

And we’ve had some like incredible guests this season that I mean have also have been

862

00:49:31,600 –> 00:49:36,040

keeping in touch and reaching out and just like the impact that it has on us is like

863

00:49:36,040 –> 00:49:37,680

beyond.

864

00:49:37,680 –> 00:49:42,200

I also just like love like the relationships that we have now like created with like other

865

00:49:42,200 –> 00:49:46,240

I hate the word influencers like that, like in person, like influencers and like this

866

00:49:46,240 –> 00:49:52,640

breast cancer community, you know, of just like it’s so nice, like, you know, sometimes

867

00:49:52,640 –> 00:49:58,960

female dynamics are not easy, like the easiest and like the amount of support that like everybody

868

00:49:58,960 –> 00:50:04,680

gives, whether it’s like people who are podcasting people who have like their own shows, people

869

00:50:04,680 –> 00:50:10,960

that, you know, have their own platforms and do, you know, educating on similar things

870

00:50:10,960 –> 00:50:15,520

and just like everyone is so supportive and like reposting each other and just like, you

871

00:50:15,520 –> 00:50:17,320

I just love this.

872

00:50:17,320 –> 00:50:21,600

I love I mean, I again, like I always say this isn’t a club I wanted to be a part of,

873

00:50:21,600 –> 00:50:26,080

but this is this community is incredible and I’m so grateful to be a part of it and have

874

00:50:26,080 –> 00:50:31,080

it and, you know, have women feel comfortable enough to like be coming to us and I just,

875

00:50:31,080 –> 00:50:32,080

you know, thank you.

876

00:50:32,080 –> 00:50:36,800

Thank you all for listening and supporting our podcast.

877

00:50:36,800 –> 00:50:42,000

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878

00:50:42,000 –> 00:50:44,840

other women in their journeys through breast cancer.

879

00:50:44,840 –> 00:50:49,880

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